Issues.....

Hey guys! :) So yesterday I had a melt down a break down you might say. Anyways it was just one of  those things where you just can't hold back any of the pain anymore.

I bet as your reading this your wondering why is she telling this to us? Well, typing and writing helps I can talk about it easier than with someone face to face. It's like I can't be face to face with someone to talk about my issues.ting about it helps. I have to be some sort of closed where you dunno who I really am. I can't talk about it with anyone i'm close to in real life. It's just to  hard for me to tell them.

I've been struggling with finding what i'm good at.. I have a list of the TOP 3 things I love to do.

1. Writing
2. Basketball (I plan on hopefully becoming a pro)
3. Cheer leading

Also i've been struggling wondering if my friends are fake or real. If im even their friend. If i even fit in with them. It's like I get to play the good friend and keep my friend and ehr crush together at the dance. Like I had to force her to slow dance with him. It hurt so bad to watch them slow dance. X( Then my BFF keeps telling the same friend shes so gorg. EVERY FREAKIN' TIME she sees her!  She never tells me this EVER. So it puts my self-eestem to the lowest it can go..

This is really long and I figure you don't care so.. I'mma end it here.

Have a nice evening :'))

I love you even if they don't <3

Yours truly,

Sam